Ugh, I’m sorry, this took forever to write. I have been having a hard time finding the motivation to keep on doing this, even though it is something I want to do. Brace yourself… It’s gonna get bumpy.
Intention is something that—for me—seems to come in waves. I’ll get an idea, latch on to it, be really really into it, then just quit… Maybe I’m just weird, but thinking about this I actually notice it in many many examples in my life: Guitar, Drawing, Website Creation, Working Out, Mountian Biking, Volunteering… Blogging. It starts as an idea.
The idea that starts as the tiniest itch in the back of my mind turns into a bigger and bigger itch, like a mosquito bite that becomes so desperate that you don’t have any option BUT to scratch it.
So I scratch it. The itch goes away. Unlike a mosquito bite, it doesn’t come back with urgency.
You know how mosquito bites are… if you scratch the bite, it’ll just get more and more intense.
I’m not like that.
I need to make myself get the itch back. I need to continue to find my passion over and over and over again. I need INTENTION. Sitting down in front of a computer and writing a blog post even if it sucks, getting to the gym even if I’m tired and won’t perform well, opening up my book and drawing even if I don’t have a vision I’m trying to put to paper. Whatever.
I have learned personally that by putting my energy into these things and more, I will find some of the joy that I had at the start. By doing small intentional acts, it helps my life feel intentional as a whole.
When I am not following one of my new ‘itches’ or pursuing growth in one of my old ones, I feel lost—like I am floating through life. And that sucks. So here I am, writing a shitty blog post with intention. Because it feels good.
I know that I am not alone in this—it feels good to feel like your life has intention. That’s why there are so many movies about finding purpose—it is such a universal craving. The point that so many of the movies make is that if you don’t seek out that purpose intentionally, it won’t just find you. You need to look for it.
So get out there. Do! Try! Happen to life, don’t let it happen to you.
Creating and pursuing passions intentionally will lead to a larger purpose and joy.
So here I am.
Writing a rambling, incoherent blog post with intention.
Because baby steps.
Because I want to.
Because I need to.
That’s it. If I lost you somewhere in the first or second sentence, I totally understand. I wasn’t sure where I was going with this at the start (and am still not 100% sure to be honest…)
So yeah, anyways, if you made it this far, thank you so so much for sticking with me! You are awesome and special and it means a lot to me that you are interested in what I have to say, even if it’s not much.
I really want to hear if you have any ideas or comments for me, because I truly want to improve and this was most definitely far from my best work (so please leave comments down below!)
As promised, here are a few super rad songs I have been listening to.